SUN SHINES :D

a minute later

2009-07-13T16:48:00.000+08:00

Maybe livej. (Either here or there)

aminlater.livej.com

mpos,

2009-07-09T18:32:00.007+08:00

"Wherever you go, I will be following
Whenever you call, I will be there
Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright"
-071008

it feels just like yesterday

2009-06-22T23:19:00.009+08:00

Sigh.
Schools to re-open as scheduled despite H1N1 situation

Sigh.
SuJu's goodbye stage.

Double sigh.

Somethings lacking. I hope tomorrow's trip will be able to charge me up with energy and motivation to continue with this tough journey ahead.

"I believe the day will finally come and go."

sometimes, the hardest things and the right things are the same.

2009-06-20T15:32:00.008+08:00

Awesome song:

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams
No Boundaries (Kris Allen)
***

I am so sad because June Hol is coming to an end! We're left with a week ): Not that Ive been enjoying this holiday like never before, I just need that extra hours of sleep. I seriously dislike waking early in the morning for lessons): (who've loved it anyway?)

Tevez is leaving United too.

WOAH, this is more than words.

as my hands tremble.

2009-06-19T11:22:00.002+08:00

Supposed to be a happy day, but things went out of hand at the start. Plans were ruined.

I turned around to look for my snowman. To my surprise he had melted away

This time, I know different parts of me are fighting for different things, believing in different things too. If you could save me, save me from this maze Ive been lingering in for too long.

Im tired of (asthma).

the days that were erased.

2009-06-17T22:07:00.003+08:00

Watched drag me to hell with Melissa today! The movie was so worth our time, seriously. The moment the movie starts we kept screaming (not for nothing) till the end of the show. The sound effect + Mel's screams almost burst my ear drum. HAHA. And we were all saddists, we kept laughing and screaming over the horrifying scenes for the entire time. + I kept asking whats wrong with the girl sitting beside Mel, I have no idea what was she trying to do, laugh / scream / cry ? She was confused, lol.

Was comparing our ezlink just now and she was saying if the person ever sees our ezlink she'd wonder why on earth would our parents name us the same chinese name. +++ Mel loves girly stuff (includes white cat with pink ribbon, puffy things, pink stuff), right? Lol.

Really hope Michelle will be free soon. Jiayou!

Walked from cck to gombak. Long journey searching for the forest fire site. On our way 188's driver 的头很痒。哈哈哈，当场在红绿灯哪里笑得要命。还真是搞笑!

啊，我忘了还要blog什么了。算了，晚了，再见。

Where have you been?

2009-06-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

On handing over, I think I forgot to send Pristhe photos I took with Janice and Cherie): Shall update the next time. By the way, my juniors were too busy practicing when I took the photo.

생일축하합니다, Yongren!
(By the way thats happy birthday in hangul. )

more than a day, now 246th.

2009-06-15T23:49:00.004+08:00

Cynthia:

did amaths
ran!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
had emicake

today.

6,815,869,131.
(Im sorry, I miss you still.)

if it isnt too late.

2009-06-14T18:11:00.003+08:00

Something seems to be lacking in me. It sucks when a part of me say yes but the other is screaming no. Contractions I have in life, they're way too much to account for.

Ah, Ronaldo is leaving for Real Madrid.

For: Take me away (Lifehouse).

all the possibilities that life has to offer.

2009-06-13T23:21:00.004+08:00

Leonardo = genius. Visit Science centre for Da Vinci exibition, its worth the time and money. Trip to the science centre was a blast, and someone's reaction over the "support bridge" was :O, really made the trip a fruitful one. HAHA. :P

Thurs' handing over was more than words.
I will forever remember the times we've shared as an orchestra, fellow orchestra mates, you'll always be a part of my memory. Percussionists, have more confidence in yourself and practice harder. Be influential, spread the passion you girls have for seeoh to the others.
BBCO, keep it going, 2011's syf: GOLD. Under Shen Lao Shi's baton, Im sure we can do it better each time. JIAYOU!

Off, happy holidays.

eighth, 6,815,869,131.

2009-06-12T23:54:00.004+08:00

REJOICE, holiday lessons are over. GREAT.

We were wrong in the first place.

( Trotz dieses viele Male, I' ll vergessen Sie nie. )

2009-06-09T21:04:00.005+08:00

Thursday will be handing over for seeoh.
真得很想念华乐。希望星期四回去的时候不要像去年一样，痛哭流涕。时光飞逝，一转眼间一年就这样的过去了，回想起那时，真的好怀念啊。虽然这一路走来并不容易，但我一点也没后悔。

16 July, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

what matters might not matter in the end.

2009-06-08T19:33:00.002+08:00

Could feel my cheeks growing fatter and fatter as each day passes by. Today, especially.
Meal, medication, sleep, meal, medication, sleep, meal, medication, sleep. :/

I must make sure I fulfill my goal this time. The GOOH&FC mission!

Whats wrong with falling ill and staying home to rest on a school day? I dont see any wrong in that, why must people kick a big fuss about it and start making unneccessay comments / wild guesses of my whereabouts? Downright disappointing.

6/6.

2009-06-05T21:35:00.005+08:00

Been quite awhile since the last time I lay my fingers on the keyboard. Guess this is a good sign.

Never had such wonderful view of Sg before. The wind really had an amazing power to calm me down, at least for that moment in time I could feel my mind being so much clearer, and was certain of what to do. Really thanks to friends who've stood by me through it all.

Besides breathing physics, we enjoyed ourselves at wcp too. 和空在聊天的时候发现我的人生其实不只充满了矛盾，也充满了害怕与伤心。But the sea breeze managed to give me peace. And most importantly, thank you people.

Sixth.

p.s. secret recipe

2009-05-30T23:46:00.002+08:00

Today:

bugis
played hit-sm(b)-game again, ranked 6th
douby ghaut
cathay
back to bugis again
hotpot (and stink like hell after eating)
walked from bugis to raffles place
home

Really exhausted from the trip, especially the felt-short-but-actually-long-distance walk from bugis to raffles place. Its amazing I can still sit and blog about our day, Im sure the others dropped dead once they reached home.

Slacked and had enough fun today, its time to get back to work tomorrow.

(even till today, those memories haunt me.)

place your heart in the right places

2009-05-30T11:53:00.004+08:00

Months and months ago, I knew my chances are already gone.

(because Im stupid)

2009-05-29T23:04:00.002+08:00

I dont know why do I bother.

But if you've been reading _ you'll know whats true and whats not.

we should all listen

2009-05-28T21:54:00.003+08:00

Let's Not (Super Junior)

please.

2009-05-28T21:29:00.002+08:00

Have no idea whats with my phone, cant even open my inbox now. I guess its because of the overflowing no. of msges I have in it currently. Its been a long time since I last deleted my inbox / outbox msges. :/ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, FAN SI LE.

Today's chinese intensive was really bad. We were in a sauna for the entire day. Cant wait for this to end because we've been breathing too much chi. And please let us have a better room tomorrow, because we almost died today.

有些事说了等于白说。与其说出来彼此受罪，不如什么都不说。
希望这一切真的能快点告一段落，如果在这样下去恐怕我真的承受不了。

what I failed to deliver.

2009-05-25T20:28:00.003+08:00

"Chinese intensive:/
Jiayou people, don't die."
-ilovefangting.bs

We're half dead by first half of chi intensive today): Sigh.. Cant imagine how are we going to survive this cheena week ahead. JIAYOU!

Too tired from chinese:/
Wish us luck.

LEETEUK / SIWON

2009-05-24T17:01:00.004+08:00

今天和好友一起去jp打SM(B)。我们打得很开心，尤其是我还打到手痛。实在太好笑了，决定下次要带双K一起去打，让他们也过过瘾。

昨天也聊起我们名字的意思，其中空的最特别：有superman的意思。期待明天再碰面告诉你你名字的意思。（想你因该会很得意吧? 哈哈哈) 而阔的名字却有着很safe的含义，实在太有趣了。哈哈哈。。好友的则有个古怪的意思：又香又看？真特别！我的就不必多提了。还有“怕鬼的故事”也实在是让我们笑翻了。

与好友真是见足了七天，有够夸张的。

P/S. Hz管很多？哈哈哈。

because we're not alone, I know we'll make it through.

2009-05-23T23:09:00.005+08:00

Went for study trip thinking the 3 papers will easily be cleared. Sadly NOOOOOOO. Those chinese characters are really sleeping pills:/. Chinese is taking over our lives, I cant imagine how are we gonna survive the coming week's chinese intensive. Or should I be contented that we're under Mdm SX?

We live in anticipation each day.

what we said / saw / heard.

2009-05-23T00:08:00.003+08:00

My tutor almost went bonkers when he read my exam scripts. Too many careless mistakes that he told me I should only attempt 8 questions for the entire paper so I have no chance to be a kanchiong-spider to rush through my work and waste all my marks on careless mistakes.

By the way, 我的好友有怪癖！:OOOOOOOOOO

Im never going back to that place, never falling back to that situation when Im no longer myself, when Im always unsure of my directions. Thats bad, I need to buck up on my r5 in order to get into somewhere / some course thats of my interest. Rather satisfied with my attitude towards things now(though its not the best), Im having the drive to give my best (at least to improve on my r5 and clear o's chi with a1). This must go on, I must move along too.

Been seeing the 14th board around all these while, but its still weird to recall that they're now the excos. No idea why, but in one way or another the memory of them being recruits is still stucked in my mind. HAHAHA. Whichever the case, jiayou for the camp planning, I have absolute faith in all of you, and the advisors are looking forward to an enjoyable(for us) and enriching(for them) camp yeah. JIAYOU!

Went back to seeoh on thurs and realised its really a part of me! Though we've stepped down I really felt the sense of belonging when we returned for practice that day. Im anticipating the 2 rehearsals we're having with the orchestra before 6August's performance!

It was special, but remember it was.

Reality, intangible.

2009-05-19T19:19:00.005+08:00

We once saw it bud and bloom, now we're seeing it wither as days pass by.
Its part and parcel of life, I guess.

Happy birthday, 海!

2009-05-18T19:30:00.005+08:00

To Ft:

YES!
(Shall tell you the reason why tomorrow:P)

Anywayz, happy birthday! Now that you're (finally) 16 we no longer have to buy different movie tickets and sneak into the same theatre for any nc16 show. Isnt it great? :D Whatever it is, hope you've had a really happy birthday with me (and all the surprises - the good + the bad). We'll be bffl! HAHAHA sounds gay but exclusively for you on your birthday. HAHAHA.

Although Im quite worried about my results too, dont give yourself too much stress about that yeah! We'll all be able to do it if we persist yeah. Have faith in yourself, and 记得我们要一起进一样的course的！所以我们要多多努力, 加油！最重要是要相信自己！:D
***

Had duty today! :D Was a whole new experience to be in the same room with countless fruit flies in the morning. And its been long since the very last time I closed the side gate, and wore a tie! Feels really good in tie and badge.

2weeks to chinese o's, 12 weeks to prelims. Its time to work a little harder and be a little more kiasu. :P

On a lighter note: "If only its worth. It might not be."

May 16.

2009-05-16T21:04:00.002+08:00

Today is indeed a happy day:

Zoo trip with hktk (HAHAHAHAHA) was thumbs up!
Was fun to the max with so much laughing till my cheeks ache.
Watched the animal show that we've anticipated for quite a long time!
All of us had fun
MAN UTD WON THE TITLE!

tell me what Im feeling isnt some mistake

2009-05-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

We've been breathing books all these days, glad its all over (for now). But theres more to come, prelims and o's. By the way, my pq is miserably short.

Lunch was fantabulous, but we dont seem to like the bbq smell too much.

Hz is officially a spy, whos seriously interested in chemistry gas tests.

your heart cant feel what you doesnt want to feel

2009-05-12T22:02:00.004+08:00

My brother and I must be on diet. MUST, MUST, MUST! & Im like super sad that my brother is moving out soon. Although I'll (finally) have my very own room, but it'll all be different without him :/. +Looks like bukit panjang is the hotspot nowadays, everyone around me is moving there~

Perhaps change is what we're supposed to get used to. So much has changed in my life, really glad I managed through though.

(我很想念华乐)

Thats you, not me.
Your life, not mine, not mine, not mine, not mine.

SIN2A = 2SINACOSA

2009-05-12T13:24:00.002+08:00

I was super gay towards the last few seconds of the paper, my hands were shaking when I pressed the calculator for the answer. Too bad, too slow.

Off for phy tys!

another aspect of life

2009-05-11T23:55:00.005+08:00

(While waiting for my phone to charge)
Happy things about today:

watched 17 again
found new motivation (new earpiece)
regain hearing (new earpiece)
3 days till the end of mye!
fri is marking day
one 不能说的秘密 (*looks like ft*)

Anyway Im constantly reminded of the scene when the guy's head was almost sandwich between the doors when we were on our way back on Sat night. Reallaye funny, freaky at the same time. Anyhow Sat night and tonight was awesome, in fact it has always been enjoyable each time.

47%, but Im going off.

Move, if theres a way to.

2009-05-09T09:27:00.006+08:00

THIS and THIS are extremely funnayeeeeee. Will definitely have a good laugh. Guess this is what we should all do during this taxing period of time yeah.

"Ive finally seen enough, enough for me to finally move from where I was."
Today, will be a better start.

if theres a way out

2009-05-08T14:46:00.002+08:00

Over couple of days, things have changed drastically.

because your face is all I want to see

2009-05-01T00:20:00.001+08:00

Watched ManUtd - Arsenal match last night / last morning (whatever you call that). Cant help but to laugh over the handball made. You can see the immense embarrassment wrote across the player's face. Damn evil, but super hilarious. Anyway, was almost late for school as I only got to sleep after watching the match which is already 4.30am! (And for your information there is an encore telecast now. :/) I should've slept once Im done with chinese, but gladly I was able to stay awake in school because if I were to ever doze off it'll take quite a long time to keep myself awake again. Just like this evening, once I reached home and fell asleep on the sofa, only managed to wake at 10pm. Thats bad, :/

Its Labour day, Happy birthday Joshua! Honestly I cant remember when is your syf date but whatever it is jiayou in your 10 bars! HA:P

SPA is officially over, looking back at those times when I dread every spa lesson. Its really nice to say it has come to an end.

Im really drained for this week's happenings.
For now, goodbye and to all: JIAYOU FOR MYE!

200th.

if only you could be in my life like you've been on my mind

2009-04-26T20:07:00.003+08:00

Ronaldo (57, 68), Rooney (67, 71), Berbatov (79)
Last night's match was awesome, especially for second half.

No I cant deny,
I cant deny.

losing you, its a different kind of pain.

2009-04-25T12:28:00.010+08:00

Im currently anticipating: 14 May.
End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye End of mye
But for now: study hard.

I miss Ug bonding '09:

(On AAC '09)

"Feels like life is passing by with happiness just being a lie"
Falling (David Archuleta)

in actual fact, Im really lost I dont know what to think / do anymore.

2009-04-24T23:21:00.005+08:00

Im really violent:O I was having a hard time trying to pull my right earpiece out of my bag and in the end out of pekchekness, with all my might I managed to pull it out. Yes indeed it came out of my bag, the entire plug came off too. On a lighter note, Ive finally got the reason to get my philips earpiece.

The past 4 hours was :O. Had tuition and after the hour of drilling I went on with SS(a full blow miracle!) and more amath. Hope this will go on and on and on and on.

Happened to chance upon our seeoh's concert videos on youtube and realised when I was playing jun ma duo biao last year I was off beat like HALF OF THE TIME?! Oh manzxzx, thats extremely bad! And that was not the only song I screwed in. After listening to those song I have absolutely 0 idea of what I was doing in my entire Sec2 life. Really wasted my time counting bars and what was worst counting those wrong ones uh. HA. Whatever it is, I enjoyed my days then.
Now that its my turn to leave Im starting to miss everything all over. The problem with myself is I'll never fail to miss things / people time and again. And if Im gonna list them down its gonna be a never-ending one. At this moment I would really like to hear Des sing All I Ask Of You and Home again. HA.
(P/s: Watch this if you're already missing Mr Sim's scoldings. Super gaoxiao.)

Day 194.
"just so you know"

a new chapter of life

2009-04-22T18:23:00.008+08:00

Was too tired to do anything last night.

Anyway 100% effort was what we were asking for in the very first place. Now that we've archieved it I guess we should all be happy regardless the result. I hope bbco will do better for the next syf and make us proud. Thank you for all the happy memories we have together I will never forget all that we've gone through together. The good and bad, the ups and downs, we'll forever remember.

For now, jiayou for metamophosis 2!

Officially an advisor. Cant deny I am miss going into the general office everyday, and every little things the excos used to do together. There are so much I want to tell all of you but I have no idea where should I start. Just need all of you to know, Ive always been happy together with the board. No regrets being through all the ups and downs with all of you for the past one year. Really, thank you for everything. Without anyone of you, Im no one today.

You'll be missed.

words are choking,

2009-04-20T20:11:00.005+08:00

Dear friends, and anybody who is reading this please pray for all the seeoh members to be able to get through this syf smoothly and may we get our desired goal: GOLD. All thanks to Joshua and the excellent performance our seeoh had during practice today, Im really motivated now.

Really thank every single one who helped in settling the issue over the weekend. Really thank you! It is a pity, but it will all be worth if it is a Gold. WE CAN DO IT!

And with Weiting saying:
"CO GOLD LA CO GOLD i SAY GOLD MEANS GOLD."
WE CAN DEFINITELY DO IT. Haha, anyway we were quite dumb to be chatting in facebook the whole while when both of us were online in msn. Haha.

To the 14th Board:
Theres no way we can change this decision made, so in order not to live in regrets please work hard to make this investiture a success. Yes, it is really a spoilsport to know that we'll be missing it, but I have absolute faith in you guys that without our presence you guys can do it too. Its just the matter of confidence you have. If I can pick myself up again, Im sure all of you can do it too. So please please, its less than 24 hours to your big day dont let anything affect you. Stay focus and concentrate on the neccessary. Even when Im away, I'll keep praying for all of you.

To the 13th Board:
Do not worry about anything regarding the Prefects investiture, we must keep our faith in them in order for them to excel. We must continue to trust them alright! On this very last official day of service, I will miss every single moment I have with all of you. I'll forever remember the 6 of you, I will.

So much to complete yet so little time, gotta go off. But I'll come back with more tomorrow. Pray for us, we can do it! Anyway, thanks to Nat and Celine! WE WILL DO IT.

"thank you."

Ive always remember about you

2009-04-19T20:39:00.003+08:00

"If you remember every single thing that happened."

Even if Im not okay, I gotta say I am. Because nothing is ever going to help, I cant deny Joshua's call indeed cheered me up last night. But in truth I know deep in me I dont feel good. And for all I know its not a happy feeling.

it has always been you and no one else.

2009-04-18T21:03:00.005+08:00

Take me where I've never been,
Help me on my feet again.
Show me that good things
come to those who wait.
Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can.
You Can (David Archuleta)

if only you could be here to pull me through,

2009-04-18T17:38:00.003+08:00

Its a pity to give it all up at this point of time when all is planned. Its something I'll never want to do, but theres really no way out.

Seems like theres really no way to make things better, somehow I just feel as if all that has been done is kinda wasted. But no matter what has happened I just hope the 9 of you will continue to make the investiture a successful one. All the best. And I'll pray hard for every single one of us in seeoh to perform well and hopefull a gold. Or not Im sure it'll be another round of disappointments and regrets.

One after another it has been crashing down on me, words cannot describe how emotionally wrecked I am. But I do want to feel better.

6,815,869,131.

2009-04-16T06:02:00.003+08:00

185 Days
5 Days

Keep going everyone.

"recovery is slow and dismal"
Theres only one way, and Im unsure if I could make it through.

you have a choice but I dont.

2009-04-13T22:49:00.003+08:00

If thats nothing, I wont feel a thing.

Apparently, not.

8days, jiayou.

together,

2009-04-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

"You and I together forever"
-Knowing.

Hold in your heart the faith that everything will be alright

2009-04-11T20:55:00.003+08:00

10am - 3.30pm.
Perhaps by taking it slow, things will turn out better, I proved myself right today. Today I really feel you guys working, and this is what missed the most. If theres a choice and chance, I'll take this route again. Afterall, I love this board.

Ten days.
We're all counting down to that special and memorable day. I need a break, but deep in me I hope the day never comes.

Anyway we should stop eating pearls. *looks into the mirror, and at strawberry milktea / milktea boy* HA.

I think I can join forces with two of the milktea boys as some boy-cliques manzxzx, (Just like the bsb :P) just because Im looking extremely boyish now. ):

"Theres a difference with those laughter.
It was loud, so what? It was never happiness."

its taking me to places I didnt want to go

2009-04-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

"Sometimes you'll have to fight the battle more than once to win it"
This is true.

put my heart in the right places,

2009-04-10T00:39:00.002+08:00

How can I ever solve your problems when I cant even handle mine? Encouragements Ive been giving these days havent been working that much I guess. They werent convincing enough I guess. I dont see how people can be motivated when encouragements are coming from one who've never been completed so far. Im really sorry.

For the past few days Ive been holding it within, I thought I'll be able to make it through but looks like Ive really reached my limits today. ~~Work has been piling up like nobody's business. There are so many things we're expected to do.~~ Everyone seems to be getting twenty million times more demanding than usual, otherwise, my tolerance level had strank drastically due to (multiple reasons).

That hour spent at the bus stop alone wasnt enough, sometimes theres just no way out of this mess. So for this final week, I'll ask for nothing but everything to turn out fine.

I never wanted it to end, but end it did.

2009-04-07T23:05:00.004+08:00

Experienced the most extreme pekchek-ness and awkwardness over these two days.

Apparently mac was better than expected. Managed to complete studying for geog test within 2hours despite messages that came in which made me laugh to myself. Really retarded but worth laughing.

Looking forward to Thurs, Seeoh: Celine &Natalie are coming back(I supposed?)!

14days to SYF and 14th Prefect Investiture.
17days to mye (doomed.)

"I keep running back to the one thing I need to run away from the most."

sixth.

2009-04-06T20:34:00.004+08:00

Today started off real badly. But gladly as the day proceeded, things went into places prettaye well.

Sports day was full of laughter at our area. My throat hurts from all the laughing over: some-extremist-who-has-the-power-to-make-us-go-:O/:S/:/. Like I told Kel, that will be some motivation for us to not be emo, and LAUGH. Thats right yeah, stay focus.

At this point of time, I no longer need to know the reason why I guess. Its gonna be about staying focus, keeping on the right track. Because I believe, and trust, I will not doubt.

#174, it will be worth.

2009-04-05T21:09:00.005+08:00

16 Days to SYF / 14th PREFECTS' INVESTITURE

You think its gonna be there forever, no, you're wrong.
Change, is inevitable. Before you even realise, its all gone and lost.

Thats helplessness,

2009-04-04T15:57:00.004+08:00

I feel it now, greater than ever. The feeling that no matter how hard I try, Im only ever going to be second-rate. That no matter what Im willing to do, or what I'd give/sacrifice/offer, Im still going to be inadequate. I'll never be enough. I'll never be able to be given my chance/opportunity to adopt/do what I'd really want most in the world. Even with my all, its not going to be enough. & I'd do so much, give anything, just for it.

I forgot how many times I got upset for the same reason,

2009-04-03T23:02:00.003+08:00

Hectic and wearing day in school today. Survived through, great.

Duty was encouraging, once more proved myself right in making the decision to work harder for the board. Though I could feel theres no way for me to move any further, I know there're people who will be ready to give their support. Thats comforting enough, really.

And its really pleasant to have someone whom you can talk to among people. To be absolutely truthful Ive never thought I'd be able to look back at things this much. And its even more heartwarming and exciting to know that Kel actually feels the same way as I do about some-extremist-who-has-the-power-to-make-us-go-:O/:S/:/. Just for laughs!

Alright, Im tooo tired to even keep my eyes open.
Desperately needs rest.

Perhaps we should all know the difference between the smiles.

Day 170, if only. (if only)

2009-04-01T17:23:00.004+08:00

Chat I had with the two juniors really makes me wonder if Ive really been on the right track lately. Wz was right about knowing what we're doing.

Perhaps I was never sure of what I was doing too.

I'll try, I will.

2009-03-31T20:57:00.005+08:00

A short one before leaving for my grandparents' place.

It is clear that Syf is extremely important to us, as I saw Yj cry today I knew Im not the only one whos working. In fact Ive discover this fact long ago, but today I was really touched. Dont worry Yj, you dont stand alone we're a section so Im sure we'll be able to make it through together alright! Get well soon!

I dont want this journey with the 13th board and the orchestra to end just like that. I really hate to see things end this way, but sadly there isnt any other way out either. (helplessness.)

"I never gave up on you, but you're slowly pushing me in that direction."

Day168; not maybe not tomorrow not someday but now

2009-03-30T21:41:00.005+08:00

Last night's concert was a blast despite the fact that we (Ys, Bs, and I) laughed our way through. I like the way sco perform, we should learn too.

Ive finally started on PI! Thats definitely a happy news for a slacker like me. Look ug camp comm, Im no longer a slacker!

I know by doing that I'll be lagging behind again, but I'll keep trying.
I believe I can, and I'll try.
(Anyway, although I was too lazy to reply Im still thankful of everything.)

"No, I cant deny, its the fear of letting you / everything related to you go."

when a heart breaks it dont breakeven.

2009-03-29T00:05:00.003+08:00

Its all about coping with stress, and moving at the same time.

Seems like my explaination will never get through them. If only they knew Ive really been trying. )': If only you've been here. If only, if only, if only.

Kai was right.

Maybe we're not supposed to be happy, maybe we're just nmtb

2009-03-27T21:20:00.006+08:00

Overslept for tuition and had my tutor knocking the door for twenty minutes. Haha, I heard it but apparently I thought it was just some salesperson so I conviniently ignored it. When I finally woke up and opened the door, his facial expression was hilarious. My tutor can really make me laugh, alot. And anyway, the textbk is so misleading!

I really regret not getting the crumpler bagpack. ARGH. ):

Guess many teachers are getting pretty stressed up lately, just like us they're having thoughts to give up. The only difference: not on the subjects but us. Sigh.. I guess we should all workharder and persist! We all know its gonna be a tough ride before we reach the terminal, none of us is ever gonna drop off half way so lets really jiayou and fight this battle together! Hang in there!

Tonight, tomorrow, Sunday will be pia days. Jiayou!

Ss was practically a laughing lesson. Des, Hw and I laughed like :O over so many things!

There seems to be something thats lacking, but I just cant pinpoint what is it. Rightfully, I should try to understand, but (...).

"Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate."

ignorance is bliss.

2009-03-27T00:31:00.006+08:00

In truth, knowing too much isnt helping at all, now that Ive known everything I hope I knew nothing in the first place. Sigh.

#164, it keeps leaving me needing you

2009-03-26T21:48:00.010+08:00

As I have my dinner (at 9.48pm), shall use this time to multi task and blog.

It feels good being productive and on task. Its been long since the very last time Ive spent such a long time at the lib.

Been having headache for 4 consecutive nights, I bet if this persists my brain is seriously gonna explode. My medicine is useless, and I honestly feel too much of it will corrode my body system:/

Anyway, it was rare for me to stay this calm when Im late. Miracle, even my mum had a shock because Im usually a kanchiong-spider.

Im reallayeeeeeee addicted to whatever it takes by lifehouse. Im sure the acoustic version would sound better! (I'll do whatever it takes to turn this around, )

Planning of PI is starting soon, I hope the 10 of you will really treasure every moment you have together, I will cherish every single moment I have from now with the excos and you guys. Because I know once we step down, everything will change, inevitably everything will be different.

Being overly emotional, seriously sucks.

Its about getting used to things, I guess thats life, thats helplessness.

these miles have torn us world's apart &I miss you.

2009-03-23T20:10:00.007+08:00

I have no idea why each time after seeoh / during seeoh I'll be having headache. That sucks. :/ Anyway, its really comforting to hear Mr Sim saying "silver is secured." (That is if we play as well as during the prac) But if its a gold, it'll be so much better and all the pain that Ive been going through its all worthwhile.

Today was generally a good start of the entire term(except results that were demoralising). At least Im having the drive to complete all the work. Thats great, thats great.

Anyway I think Ive been watching toooooo many horror movies lately, should cut down on it. The funny thing about this is, Im never brave enough to open my eyes wide to watch the entire movie. Dumb:/ Another thing, I'll start laughing when I see the ghost/monster-like-creature. Ive became a saddist! OH NO:/ (Anyway its hard for me to figure out what Im typing, so shall end off quickly.)

Oh no, the teevee is reviewing the 1 - 4 match again. AH, thats super irritating. Whatever it is, GO MAN UTD! (Okay, its about liverpool. :/)

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me
From Where You Are (Lifehouse)

pia.

2009-03-22T17:20:00.005+08:00

Its typical of us to gather on the last day of holiday to: chiong homework. Pathetic :/

P/s. My ulcers almost killed me:/

being able to survive it doesnt mean it was ever okay

2009-03-22T00:58:00.003+08:00

My life is not only about myself, but people around me too. I guess its time I start to cherish the time I have with everyone around me more. Life is too vulnerable, too short for us to waste any moment. No one knows whats going to happen tomorrow, today(yesterday) Ive really seen it all.

Chat we had at Ft's place was a blast. Really enjoyed you girls' company alot, thanks!

Gosh, drumline sountrack almost burst my eardrums. Too loud, but awesome. Anyway saw the real a&t drumline, and some other drumline battles on youtube, all of them play snares as if its the only thing they've ever done in their years of living. Really :O, thumbs up.

Pref Investiture / Syf - in a month's time.

"How can I move on when I'm still in love with you."
The man who cant be moved (The Script)

I live on motivation

2009-03-20T21:26:00.007+08:00

It is you(I have loved) - Dana Glover

Might sound gay, but I really like the melody. I guess it sounds better in piano version. Shrek might be a stupid movie to some people(HA:P), but the theme songs kinda rock.

Today is a shrek day I guess? I found my shrek ears(from Mac) and started wearing it because I realised Ive left all my clips at grandma's place, started listening to shrek theme song, talked about shrek movie.

16July'09.
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

Im seriously going to devote the rest of my hol (pathetic 2days) to finish up all the homework.

It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along
It is you I have loved (Dana Glover)

it is you,

2009-03-19T21:16:00.003+08:00

Today is just another day when my emotions went like a sine graph.

When I cant stop those flashbacks from replaying over and over again, thats helpless. When theres no way I could save myself from this sadness, thats when Ive lost myself.

drumline.

2009-03-19T09:08:00.003+08:00

I'll never get sick of this.

After o's, I must make it to the next wmc.

I'll do whatever it takes

2009-03-18T18:08:00.005+08:00

We(Ft Pris and I) saw human-rabbits at ikea today. Seriously, that was enough for my laughter to last through lunch.

Some jokes that are shared among us(clique) will last. Even when we repeat them twenty million times, it will still be funny. (Superb example: too t**** / CY / cave) For weird but unique reason like this, I cherish every moment we have together.

I bet my drums are having a hard time surviving the heat these days.

Recall about geog, des' monstrous acts(HAHA!) upon seeing jb on the cover page seriously freaks me out.

I guess my mum is giving ptm a pass this time. Despite so, Ive already decided to work hard and really buck up. Theres only one chance for o's and Im not giving it up!

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over
Whatever it takes (Lifehouse)

Day156, deep inside its hurting still.

2009-03-17T21:05:00.002+08:00

I dreamt of us(seeoh committee) going off for an advanture camp that requires us to kayak. This shows my mind has been occupied by 1) june seeoh camp 2) dumb kayaking thoughts (:/). Sometimes I do agree that my brain has been too occupied by irrelevant things(a.k.a rubbish) that theres limited storage for relevant details. Thats bad.

On a totally irrelevant note:
My incoming text tone never fails to give me a shock. It was happy tree friends in the past, now - decode(paramore).

In life, having someone who really understands how you feel is a bless. Im really thankful to have such a great friend with me since the day he decided walk out of my life.
Really, thank you!

my heart's in two

2009-03-16T22:55:00.002+08:00

Great to see improvements in our orchestra, jiayou everybody.

Sigh.
Just, .

things will definitely turn out right if you were around,

2009-03-15T17:12:00.006+08:00

More often than not, we gave up even before starting. Thats teenagers, we're easily defeated by stress that we thought we couldnt handle. Superficially, scoring well for tests/exams is just for the sake of meeting expectations made by people around us (e.g. parents, teachers, even tutors). In truth, those are not expectations at all, but what we're supposed to do, isnt it?

We might say all the hardwork for syf is mainly for the school, but if we think deeper its all for our own good. Whether or not we get a gold / cop the school dont gain/lose anything as significant as the time and effort we spent practicing. Since the day we decided to commit ourselves to orchestra we should be prepared for all the extra hardwork we have to put in, so really hope everyone of the orchestra will finally see the reason why we've been working so hard for that 10 minutes on stage. We've come so far together, its the final lap let's all work towards our goal together alright!

21 April.
I know we can make it through together as an orchestra, a big family.
(P/s Grace! Its up on my motivation list already!(:)

So many things has been running in my mind lately. Some things can be expressed through words, some I'll never be able to find the right words to string them up. Sigh..

play those running notes

2009-03-14T23:07:00.003+08:00

Jian Kuai De Liang Feng on youtube is bringing back all those memories.

Anyway Man Utd lost. Sigh.

I wish I grab the chance to say

2009-03-14T21:58:00.003+08:00

Currently: United v Liverpool.
(Sigh.)

Screwed during seeoh today. Time and again, its about concentration. Shant ramble on, else the emoness will come back.

March holiday:

make sure theres something in phrasebook
finish up all assignments
do not be late for practices again
practice harder to improve drumroll
practice erhu more
concentrate
stop procrastination
ptm
visit the lib (sudden urge)

The third bullet has been put up for the sake of the committee members who bombarded my phone with 18missed calls this morning. Sigh, Im sorry.

那些愛过的感觉都太深刻，我都还记得。

If only you could be in my life like you've been on my mind,

2009-03-13T23:17:00.003+08:00

Entire week:

syf rehearsal was disappointing
cross-country
freaked out by the eye-gouging scenes in Coming Soon
they(Ft, Zo, Sw, Ts and Tw) bought tickets for dragonball but came to watch coming soon

Time flies.
This week went like a sine graph, with all the good and bad happening one after another.So soon, its March hol. Deep inside, Im somehow feeling less uptight though I'll still have to be back in school for 4/7 of my hol, at least there will not be normal lessons going on.

Today's tuition was surprisingly lively. Intergration practically includes the entire amath syllabus, eight out of ten things my tutor ques about trigo functions I will start going "uh.." and give the blur look. And today he could not help but blurted "Ah, forgot again ah, everything also forgot". And when I finally got one question right, he went "Okay not too bad at least you got one correct. Sometimes he really makes me feel dumb. :/

And I almost burn my entire house down, almost.

Truthfully, (I cant deny I dont feel a thing about whatever Ive heard / seen, but theres nothing I could do either. Whether or not its no longer as important anymore, isnt it?) its hard for anyone to replace you in my heart.

the sunset that we'll never get to catch together

2009-03-08T16:58:00.005+08:00

Random photos:
3/3 at Sakura(Clementi)
If you've went Ft's blog, this is another lame snap Chua Sin Hui x2
Times that Im missing

Mel and Mich, I really miss those times in China that we had together. I can still remember how we laughed our heads off during the singing session over the low quality light sticks that flew off. Really hope to meet up with you girls soon, (: But for now, keep going and dont give up! Jiayou for amaths and band!

Am going to grandma's place for stayover tonight, I guess this will become a twice/thrice in a week kinda thing. Just hope everything will be fine soon.

Appreciate.
Really love this song.
Life is too short, so take the time and appreciate.

The weekend has passed awfully quick, so far it has been largely unproductive. On a lighter note, this week will be the final week before March Holidays. Although there'll be 9am - 5pm intensive practices during the holidays, I think I'll still enjoy this short holiday. Hope this holiday will bring me closer to the right track Im supposed to be on.

I really want to continue working on chinese but it really sucks when you keep falling in and out of sleep within 3hours. Its as if Im down with some illnesses and desperately needs rest. Thats extremely frustrating.

After hearing Mr Ong's pov, Im worried of syf too. Its really time to work harder(perhaps twenty thousand times harder). Gave things a thought when I was on my way home after erhu, Mr Sim has always been right about me not concentrating enough. Its really true actually, my job is as simple as counting and playing at the right beat. Nothing too difficult or demanding actually. So I'll really concentrate more. Seeoh, JIAYOU!

Its always about concentration, just puzzled why cant I just concentrate. I used to stone so much that it became my habit, but back then I was able to do more things, and was more efficient. Now that Ive slowly kicked the habit of stoning, Ive also lost the ability accomplish things efficiently. Thats disappointing.

"Hang on, and hang in there.
Everything will be just fine in no time, so long as you keep the faith in you you'll make it through."
I'll keep the faith.

Hanging by a thread

2009-03-07T23:22:00.004+08:00

Chinese does not agree with my brain, every time I settle to do any chinese related work, I feel sleepy. :/ Really wish that chi o's will be over asap and really hope it'll be distinction this time, or else there'll be torture for an extra 6months.

Lo and behold, Syf and prefects investiture are on the same day, almost the same time happening at two different places. Bad timing, bad clash.

I've been rather detached since yesterday and its almost impossible to string the appropriate words together to form the right sentences to express the right feelings. Or should I say I cant even figure out how Im feeling because I dont what to feel. It happened so long ago its not supposed to matter anymore, yet it does.

It feels just like yesterday, the only difference is, after so long Ive finally understood perhaps we're nmtb, but I'll aly, just know I'll.

a hole in my heart

2009-03-06T20:24:00.001+08:00

My emotions are so entangled that theres almost nothing I can do to help. Instead, I end up losing control of my emotions more and more. More often than not, its not words spoken that resonate the loudest, but the magnitude of things left unsaid.

Warum sind Sie so schwer zu vergessen?

no matter who enters my life, your place, its irreplaceable

2009-03-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

Thank you everyone for the Manutd jers / bouquet of flower / photoframe made using lego / files / book / huge lollipop / cookies / muffins / cakes / chocolates / cards / notes / birthday wishes. (: And really thank you for making my day. Hope you guys had had a happy 3rd March too! (Thanks to Ft, Pris and sis for the wonderful dinner too!)

Today is unlike any other seeoh-day. It just feels so weird going to seeoh and I really abhor the smell that has been in the broadcasting room for such a longgggggggggggg time. Will somebody put some mothballs in the room? ): Syf is nearing, and yet we're (I am) still making so many mistakes in our songs. Theres really something we should do to improve! And I really miss the seniors alot! As Malcolm and Xinrong play our '07 choice piece I know its true to say no matter how long it has been I still misses the seniors' company alot!

After looking at the physics scoresheet I think theres really a need to make a change in my life: STUDY HARD! Really gotta buck up and work harder from now on. (I hope this momentum wont die off after some time.) Felt so out of place after thinking about results, its more like I'll fail o's than passing it with flying colours now. So I guess its neccessary for the change, and really stop being lazy and such.

Nothing will ever change anything. Not distance, not time, not space.
(There will just be a part of me that's going to be in love with you for the rest of my life)

theres always that one person,

2009-02-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

One last day to the camp, and I have not even pack a single thing into my bag.

AND , IVE READ THOSE PROPOSALS. (FINALLY!!!)
See, this is some effort put in to be less slack! :D

I never gave up on you

2009-02-25T19:04:00.003+08:00

Today:

Geog was disastrous
Pe was indescribable, I dont think I could even feel my legs after the run
Meeting lasted for real longgggg (2 - 6)
Did some work, learnt basic drills and slacked :P
WT had fun being the fake-ahp
Spotted a rainbow!
2 more days to camp!
6 more days!

It was unintentional, Im really sorry.

the faith that I'll keep

2009-02-24T16:54:00.005+08:00

My way to cope with stress now: eat. Gosh, over the past few days Ive been eating alottttttttt:O Glad enough tomorrow is coming and that means all the eating-too-much-when-mugging-hard will stop by tonight.

Jerome and I have been really into this countdown to 3/3 lately. Great great great, 7 MORE DAYS(:

Short update to take a break from transnational terrorism.

Hope everyone has been doing great for the papers so far. All the best to all.

P/S. GLADYS IS GLAD. :P

how did we get here?

2009-02-22T20:02:00.003+08:00

Ate alotttttt at Ft's place today, and we both finally became busdrivers together.

Just realised theres too much to study for both chem and phy. 3 letters to conclude: D-I-E. Looks like I'll have a hard time trying to complete most of the chapters tonight. All the best to everyone!

Pluspoint: _ really looks like _. 100TIMES MORE THAN EVER!!!!! Saw those facebook pictures and got a shock myself. Oh manzxzx, this proves Ive always been right because Ft agrees with me. (FINALLY)

How can I decide whats right,
when you're clouding up my mind?

I wish I could do the same as you did, but I just cant and wont.

2009-02-20T22:08:00.004+08:00

It really sucks when you found no motivation to even work harder for the entire week.

Secretly, I am looking forward to our Ug Bonding Camp! Okay, shall be *less slack during the camp!

Commons are coming in just 2days' time, to all, Jiayou!

It feels like chaos, I am just not that _.

theres nothing I can do

2009-02-18T23:27:00.006+08:00

So quickly,

too quickly.

"The reason I can't move on is because I have nothing to move on to. Ive given everything up for you."

surviving this is a challenge, everyone gets hurt in the very end

2009-02-14T14:35:00.008+08:00

Computer is currently down with some unknown virus, and my brother just cant seem to reformat it. :/ Currently at ft's place.

13th board in ShanghaiAYLC is over for quite a long time(to me). Now that we're back in Sg for quite some time Ive almost forgotten what I wanted to post about. So shall leave the updates till some other day when I can finally remember what we've done. Okay not that everything was so insignificant that I cant remember anything but I jsut need some time to look through my reflections so I could update the interesting details. Generally its just about everybody surviving the cold, cheering, knowing Chua Sin Hui Melissa, Michelle aka Y.B, Malvika and leadership.

Oh yeah, the hospital at China is :O, gave me a fright when I was sent there on the third night. A lesson learnt to always take good care when Im away from Sg. Gladly Miss Ngaim and the rest were around or else I've been put on some weird drips already. Ha.

Happy friends Chua Sin Hui Melissa!
Michelle a.k.a Yb!
Happy 3 friends!Darlings who went along Moomoo
Pocky mates
(:
Will update more in future.

So much to catch up with in school, work has been piling up alot lately.

Shall really have a better update soon. Bye.

so much for a happier trip, (it hurts me too)

2009-02-03T22:46:00.003+08:00

AWAY FROM 4FEB - 10FEB

Thank you to all of your well wishes, we'll have a safe journey.

People, jiayou for oral examination and SPA.

#109, wish you well wish you well

2009-01-29T23:57:00.005+08:00

Today's seeoh was extremely slackish for the percussion section. I even had time to play the yangqin and for the second time I tried playing Ballade pour Adeline!

5more days to AYLC'09! 5more days to China trip! I think all of us who are going are getting pretty excited about it already, even Miss Ngiam:D Anyway its sad to hear people will only miss my laughter when Im away :/

Nothing much about cny to blog about except for the nc16 show that we watched. Thanks to my cl face. Ha.

Surviving this is a challenge, but I'll keep going.

Off, happy cny to all anyway(:

#102, so long so long.

2009-01-22T20:19:00.004+08:00

Simply because of a passing comment made by a teacher, people scolded her a b*tch on the blog. Gosh, abeit the comment might seem to be a little harsh, but I guess before anybody judge anyone openly on their blog, do reflect on your own behaviors. Things that you've said dont seem to be very pleasing to her too.

Another week has flown by. Counting down: 12days to official start of Asian Young Leaders Convention(AYLC) 09! Means we'll be flying to China in 12days' time! :D

Cny is here again. Its like as if Ive just went through the entire stoning process last month and its here again. Cny is a festival that I'll never look forward to, not even the angbaos are able to make me get excited over it. And the worst part of cny is not the stoning(since Im kinda used to it), but the spring cleaning part. My study desk, bed are still flooded with all my books and worksheets. No idea how Im supposed to clear them all by tomorrow. Just know it takes alot of persistance to really finish the mission-impossible.

Guess this morning's performance was one of the last few performance we'll have with the orchestra. Hope we'll all get better as the days pass by and I really really look forward to us getting our Gold this year. Lets all work harder for that Gold that we've missed in our previous years of participation in syf yeah!

Alright, shall be off to try to clear some stuff away. Happy CNY to all(;
"Gong Hei Fa Choi/Coi" Gong xi fa cai in cantonese! New word of the day! :D
(That was when I knew I still love you.)

been awhile, but nothings changing.

2009-01-17T23:14:00.004+08:00

For a particular reason the family thats living a level above mine loves drilling things whenever Im asleep / having tuition / chionging homework / playing erhu. :/

18 days before we leave for China!
Went for the overall briefing this morning before having tuition. Entire session was very helpful in letting us know more about the condition there:D Hope we'll all have great time over at China:D Although we'll miss our O's SPA for both phy and chem Im sure we'll all be able to handle the stress that'll be coming yeah.

Last night.

Gla: *shows off her taekwando black belt*

Hr: Eh, 我家也有一样的belt ley!
Lol, damn gaoxiao.

&My mum is pro in rushing me to do things.

Keep it going, jiayou!

2009-01-16T22:05:00.002+08:00

For this entire week I have been searching for the right path to follow. I have no idea why, but just a sudden lost of direction after the seniors took their results. Most of my seniors scored extremely well, (especially people like Clive who've got 8distinctions! And Joshua who've got a ten pointer) good job uh. It should be a source of motivation to work hard, conversely I am feeling lost. Ha, thats weird. And with teachers demoralizing me I think its a tough journey to endure. But I will ENDURE! I BELIEVE, :D

Realised one thing about myself: I truly enjoy seeoh practices alot. Despite the fact that I do complain about the heavy instruments alotttttt, I still relish the way we gather in as an orchestra to practice every single week. I guess I'll really miss all the practices when my batch step down. That goes to prefs too, it has always been a very very taxing job to be in the exco however with people like (Atikah / Cleo / Gla / Jess / Hr / Yr), life is made easier most of the times. Cant deny there were times we were fed up with each other, but we managed through! And I really love seeing us around with one another joking and all.

For now, its really time to see if any of the students leaders are online ready to get started with the ug bonding camp planning. Nights for now, and jiayou!!!!!!!!!!!

why?

2009-01-12T00:10:00.005+08:00

People should experience equal stress.

Despite the fact that Im extremely :/ now,
ALL THE BEST FOR THE RESULTS LATER!

我会为你们祈祷。

P/S. Happy birthday Janice!

when you cant even stop them from replaying, thats helpless.

2009-01-08T03:55:00.007+08:00

Have finished things that are supposed to be done by tonight (except for ss which Ive given up hours ago) Havent been able to login to asknlearn portal since just now.

Not sleeping anymore because I will definitely oversleep if Im ever gonna sleep now. Shall not double my detention(already 6times). Ah, should instead be thankful that my mum dragged(or rather nagged) me out of bed at midnight to finish my work. I am so dying and am super desperate of sleep.

Anywayzxzx, doubt Ive mention about how pathetic+unlucky+unfortunate I was the past few days uh. Glad enough after the entire bus-ride-to-the-direction-of-kallang-thing I somewhat got rid of all the suayness I had lah. Most grateful I am still in sg. LOL.

Cant believe exactly one month later, we(Gladys Jess Cleo MissNgaim Yongren and myself) will be in Chinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I am somewhat excited of it already, okay besides the food and the lq-s I am seriously anticipating every single bit of the trip!

The new school is mad, SOP classroom location is even madder. 6th level, I almost died when I was with all the student leaders this afternoon. Okay its not as if its my first time climbing up the 6 floor but seriously everytime I walk up those never-ending flights of stairs I feel like dying.

How I wish we can all be going to seeoh afterschool later! AHHHHHHH, I miss seeoh alot. Miss the people to the max manzxzx. Am looking forward to hear Janice and Yusheng with their super sexy voice again.

Lessons starting today. Haha, bet Im gonna complain about it later despite the fact that I do want to start with lessons and concentrate moreeeee.

Am ending here, see people in school.

If theres a way out, I do want to take it.

2009-01-07T19:37:00.003+08:00

Batikah, Bakkin and myself had great fun at the pavilion today.

Tomorrow will be the official start of school. I mean for studies and all. Believed many people are chionging ispls now. (Just like I am!) LOL.

Extremely short update.

sixth.

2009-01-06T19:08:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow, a long day ahead.

Even when you're falling into pieces, keep going,

never wanted it to, but end it did.

2009-01-04T20:28:00.002+08:00

I think Im really suffering from stm. Just went to ace-learning to do the bionomial quiz and when I saw the question I actually did differentiation(what Ive been practicing during tuition lately). And realised its bionomial expansion half way through. Bad memory = lousy grades. But someone like me who was really serious when doing the amaths ispl package actually scored 100% after going through the package again. (LOL)

Has been a tiring day so far, only done 2 phy ques. (Extremely pathetic) I think its time to get rid of this slackish mood, its timeeeeeeee.

We(ft and I) are so looking forward to see R and K. Lol, and I'll make sure I call them R and K tomorrow. Lol.

Toothpaste is made of sodium monoflurophosphate. I see this everymorning when brushing and now I can remember it. Thats a little scary, chemistry everywhere.

Cant stand people asking the obvious. Not only one person but countless. :/

Even when you've lost all hopes, keep trying.

a little bit longer,

2009-01-03T17:45:00.003+08:00

Cant believe after such a long time I still cant play the drumset properly, this is damn pathetic. Especially when Im having one at home now and I cant master it. But Im sure it'll come in handy when I need the snare to prac for grade5. :D

Heard we're gonna sit accordingly to index no.? Which means Malcolm will be sitting behind/in front of me. Can still remember how much Ft and I loved to create a mess under Malcolm's table. And how we bullied him with his fear: ruler. LOL. Damn funny, guess it'll be fun this year.

Honestly speaking yesterday was a little weird without MissKoe.

And I cant identify the bell, its so alike I think? Hope we'll be able to settle in this new campus asap, and hope all the first 3days activities will come to an end soon. No idea why but really hope we can all focus on studies now.

Gonna miss seeoh this coming week. Kinda sad though.

Anyway, do rest well Priscilla.

Hang on, but to where?

2009-01-01T19:45:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Missed the counting down part of "5 4 3 2 1" that most people(including myself) anticipate each year. Its just fun, but I hate the part when everyone went "5 4 3 2 1, HAPPY NEW YEAR! (starts jumping around)" so excitedly when they dont even realise they actually went too fast its not even new year yet. Anyway, we(Wanying, Priscilla, my jie and I) were actually renting dvd at some dvd rental kiosk at the last 15min of last year, and actually walked really quickly(close to running) hoping we'll be in time to catch the final count down but nah. We missed it, the moment we reach Wanying's place its already midnight.

Although we did missed the final countdown we had a great night. Played mahjong and watched rule#1, and the first thing Ive eaten for this year is actually mac's nugget! Right after Priscilla went home I fell asleep on the sofa while watching rule#1.

Besides the stayover at Wanying's place. Dinner with Ft was considerably great too. (LOL) Its the time that we spent together that counts lah, just forget about the food and everything else lah. LOL.

School is reopening tomorrow, cant really believe its already 2009. Try to recall being one of the blur ones in school years ago. Haha, Im actually a sec4 student now. I hope I do grow up uh, and dont complain(sounds familiar, roy?).

Tomorrow will be the official start to the finishing line(o's), jiayou!

Jack is right, people should do work/listen first, ask questions later. This is damn true, how I wish people understand this manzxzxzxzx.

Anyway, study hard syf gold/percussion 5th grade focus on the neccessaries.

Timeless moments

2008-12-31T03:20:00.009+08:00

I guess Im finally leading a LIFE after such a long time of (I dont know what do I call) for so long. Okay, I think everything that happened on Monday was soooooooooo enjoyable. Chem, seeoh and the dinner. Can you see, I said CHEMISTRY WAS ENJOYABLE. A miracle, but shall try to let it become a routine / habit.

Dinner was fantabulous with the 12th, 13th board and Miss Koe. I think this is one of the best dinner Ive had over this holiday. Had so much topics to chat over, so much food, and most importantly we're with the best companion in our lives.

Despite the fact that the gift was completed in a rush at the mrt station, it looked presentable still. In fact, very presentable, and close to perfection. (LOL) But in any case, its the thoughts that counts!

I have no idea how else should I describe the dinner because its already WEDNESDAY, and my memory is bad. But I do remember Cleo and I went around the table take photo with everyone like we were the just-married-couple holding our wedding dinner or something, Jack is a pro cam-HORER, and Zizhen is super sensative to some words that Hadad(in fact anyone) mentioned. (credit: Cleo's)Really enjoyed your company alot people! To Miss Koe: Have a happy retirement and we'll all remember about the 10years-later-dinner-date :D

2E4'07 BBQ!!!!!!!!
I PLAYED SOCCER. For the very first time in my life I played soccer with Zt, Pris and the guys. Zt, Pris, Malcolm, Aliff and I were in the same team, (MANUTD, I ASSUME). Was sooooo fun that I even laughed till my throat hurts. Everybody was practically laughing their asses off, because we're just too comical. I could still recall about TeckSiong trying to have a headshot. LOL, he was like forcing his head to the ball which was like less than 20cm above ground? MIRTHFUL.

And, Des just cant stop making fun about Malcolm's phone. But its damn funny. DONT MENTION WORDS LIKE "BLUETOOTH", "INFRARED", "CHANGE", "MEMORY STICK" in front of him, hahaha.

Although all of us were SO tired at the very end of the day, Im pretty much sure most of us had had fun together, and had enjoyed each others' company. Its glad to dawn that wherever we are we're always having fun and despite being in different classes now, I still feel that kinda special bond in us. Its just too amazing for words.

Despite the fact that they are the only usual people that I hang around with, Im sure they will be the ones that I can truly rely on when I do fall apart. Thank you people, Ive had so much fun with all of you, Im afraid if theres really a day we wont be able to gather round like this I'll miss you all like :O. And this goes to both groups of people that was mentioned earlier on in this post.

I guess its safe to say, I do love you all, I still do.

Van der sar, Ronaldo, Park Ji Sung, MANUTD!

2008-12-31T01:57:00.005+08:00

Intended to blog about last night's dinner and tonight's bbq. But looking at the time, its toooooooooo late! And the informations in the proposal are overwhelming. Lol!

Anyway before I even go off to sleep, although something really spoilt me mood like :O(I know what I am doing, I hope you'll keep your comments to yourself if thats what you really want and wish to do for long, just do it. Furthermore its not like as if I did not use phrases like "it is okay?", "thank you". I did not force you into it, no one did. ), but glad that so many things that happened during bbq really made my day again, especially the people and the soccer part. Am really thankful of them, every single one of you. And oh, I like playing soccer with you people:D (Manutd manutd)

Okay okay, 6.45 tomorrow, goodnight.
P/S. Tomorrow will be a busybee day, but its gonna be extreme fun Im certain :D

picking up those shattered pieces

2008-12-28T20:34:00.004+08:00

Came back earlier, intended to finish up chi, but(as expected) I came back and started slacking.

As usual spent our entire noon laughing over ps times, especially everything about Melvin. Cant believe Ql could actually remember everything about Melvin. Its a pity only a few of us were present today, but it was quite fun though. Especially when Ql became some god of gamble(gog) or something. Lol, that was damn hilarious when he jumps up from the sofa and announced to everyone that hes the gog. Okay, one weird and funny gog who dont play mahjong.

Tomorrow will be a super busybee day. Chem, seeoh, dinner w/ pref boards. Somehow looking forward to the dinner, if you realise its boardS that Im talking about. Yeah, supposed to be a surprise but I dont think MissKoe will visit, so I guess its alright. Imagine gathering at Sakura with so many previous boards, its gonna be fun I guess.

Just dont know when I'll finish those chi compos, its taking me a decade to get them done I think. Ahhhhhhhhhh.

Even if so, I'd pick the moment I met you.

For almost a decade

2008-12-28T12:10:00.003+08:00

Am now at Shaowei's Aunt's house with the rest of the sixoneys. They(Shaowei, Nicole, Haozhe and Qinli) are playing mahjong. Like ?!, they're teaching Ql the way to really play. He was showing his "bird" to every one of us and we started asking him to keep it well, ah, its damn funny. Guess he is getting a hang out of it now. Not sure when they''ll end the game (they only started for 1/2hour), but Im pretty sure Im hungry already.

Thought its a girl and a guy in the picture. But its both guys. :O, Nic even said: "我还以为两个都是女的！" Gosh.
(Credits: Shaowei's )

Shall be back to join them, :D Have a happy Sunday.

(hmihaly) its more than you know

2008-12-24T20:42:00.003+08:00

Recently:

Working hard on ispl packages
China trip with 3excos and MissNgaim is confirmed
Busy calling people up
Screwed in combine prac
Still been about tsugbl

Ah, guess it has been all about going to school/doing ispl in my life lately. Nothing interesting, nothing has much changed either. Hope Santa will bring brighter days ahead, really hope he will.

Its about a week to new school term/new year. Thats bad, I guess.

Oh and I think seeoh has been about the ants/termites invasion more than the practices itself. And to me, screwing up during combine was enough to keep me from having tooooo much fun for the next practice. Ha, cant help dizi section with the tempo anymore. Its an irony to be the "tempo" for them when I cant even get my part right.

Ss and chi are killers. Just look at the amount of sbqs and compos we have to write, ah ah ah ah ah.

I wanted very much to voice out too, but its been a long time since the last time I really know whats exactly wrong.